It was pure sunshine,
Rarely felt in life,
A reality that dwelled for eons in a dream,
An exhilarating echo of all things I said I wanted,
My blood pumped in pure ecstasy,
As I felt this unfamiliar warmth on my face.

When it was ripped from me I faltered,
I’ve never crashed so hard,
Violent and sudden,
I watched this dreamlike reality turn to ash,
I Desperately tried to hold on as it crumbled in my sweaty hands,
Faster than it had filled my life with beauty,
It engulfed me in darkness.

I felt incomplete,
Like I had been made a fool of,
Swallowed by eagerness and excitement and ego,
Left to lick my wounds atop a mountain of disgrace.